Monday, October 28, 2013

The Wolves

I read on the internet a lot. I usually use it as a sleep aid, because even though I'm going at a million miles an hour during the day, I can't wind down at night. I should be fucking exhausted after all I do during the day. It seems that my brain goes from being functional, making organized lists of what I have to do, and gets shit done during the day


To going and shitting itself at night


There's an actual point to this entry. So, my brain was shat one night, as it usually is, and I was scrolling on some sort of social media. Through my mindless scrolling, I came across this picture:


I get it. We live in a society that says, "Think positive! That's how you get stuff done!" And it's true, you have to think positive to get some stuff done. I won't deny that. Even though I seem like an angry person, I'm actually quite optimistic and pretty fucking happy. However, we need some of that greed to survive. If we were to always be super generous and give everything away, we would't have the resources to live. 

We need some inferiority to keep the ego in check, but we need some ego to have the confidence to hit the curveballs that life throws at us. 

We need anger to fuel a passion. We need rejection to feed the need to overcome challenges. We need some jealousy to want more than what we have, be it a better life, a better education, a better something. As long as that jealousy feeds our work ethic and is not a jealousy that will hurt another person, I feel that it's okay. 

I've felt all of that in the past. I've had the rejection, the feeling of inferiority, the jealousy, and it all made me work harder. It made me want a better life for myself, to work hard to get my education, to work hard to have a chance to have a career in the Navy. I had a bit of jealousy some peers who didn't have to work very hard to get state of the art bikes, so I worked my ass off to get the bikes, wheels, and to become a better and faster cyclist. I've had the anger and the resentment in myself for falling off of the bandwagon and quit lifting, so I went back, mad at myself, and have become very strong and have met the expectations that the Navy has for me. I want to exceed those expectations, and I will. 

A person who only has happiness, love, hope, and has only gotten the truth has nothing to overcome. How can a person grow to be a better person if they've never had a hurdle to jump, or gotten hit by that nasty curveball? There is nothing to overcome; it's a comfortable life. And, to me, that's a damn shame, because I've become the person I am now (and fuckin' aye, I think I'm a pretty good person) because of all of the challenges I've had in life. 

So, to this picture, I say that we need a third wolf. We need a happy wolf who loves and shit but who has had some shit thrown at him. A wolf that wants to work to become Alpha, not just be a comfortable Omega. 

Monday, October 21, 2013

That Special Place in Hell

Here's a list of people and things that deserve a special place in hell:


  • People with gas vehicles who park at the diesel pump, especially those who park there to go buy something into the little convenience store... not even there to pump car-running nectar. 
  • Those who think that men and women can't be "just friends."
  • People who give unsolicited advice. 
  • People who can't stop talking about themselves. 
  • Overly-political douches on Facebook or Twitter. NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOUR STUPID OPINION GO AWAY JESUS CHRIST!
  • Spiders, aka NOPES. 

  • Cheap vacuums. 
  • Shedding season. 
  • Not getting the channel that airs the San Jose Sharks games. 
  • Tumbleweeds. 
  • People who smoke while driving. 
  • My neighbors because every single one of those fuckers smoke and the nasty smell gets in my apartment. Fuck. You. 
  • Lifetime movies for being so bad and addictive. 
Expect That Special Place in Hell Pt 2 soon.